My Addiction

This is a hard battle.  To change years and years of “normal” in a day, two days or a week or two is so mind boggling!  Last week I didn’t post and to be honest it was because I didn’t want to share how I was doing.

I started drinking soda again.  I have this strange addiction to diet pepsi.  I crave it.  I desire it.  The feeling of the bubbles, the taste, the can…everything!  I can’t explain it.  An alcoholic may grab a beer or a hard drink when feeling stressed, I want a diet pepsi..  ?!?!?!?!?  I don’t get it.  I don’t! 

Jillian Michaels has an article out, I guess she was like me at one point…

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http://www.everydayhealth.com/diet-nutrition/ask-jillian-how-can-i-kick-my-diet-soda-habit-for-good.aspx

http://youtu.be/K2wTHjhh0CI  This is the youtube link where you can hear her advice to kick the bad habit of soda.

I know this is crazy, I hear everyone loud and clear, soda is bad for me…I don’t care!  Does that make sense?  I think at this point the thing that is stopping me, is that I bloat up like a balloon, no exaggeration, when I drink the stuff.  And when I drink a diet pepsi, I find my whole body hurts like I have the flu.  Aches and pains in all my joints! 

So let’s see…today I did NOT have any diet soda….from here on out, we are through!  

I have broken up with diet soda and soda all together!

So, the weigh-in for last week.  I gained .8 ounces.  Not happy, but I also wore more clothes to my weigh-in so that could have effected my number!  I also know I didn’t get enough sleep during the nights so I wasn’t prepared to make smarter decisions.  I wanted sugary foods, because I was exhausted and wanted a boost and the only thing I got that from was junk.  

I had a bad week, I still went to the weigh-in and didn’t hide.  I knew I had to hold myself accountable to that scale.  So a gain of .8.  Sorry folks.