Weight Watchers!

Weight Watchers!  

OH MY GOODNESS!!!!  So many choices!  You watch tv and you're like, okay so Valerie Bertenelli can do it and wear a bikini, maybe I should do that one, oh wait Marie Osmond looks great, I should do that one....OH WAIT...Jennifer Hudson! 

 I've always loved doing weight watchers...hahah who says that?  I've loved doing this weight loss plan that I've done so many times and haven't been 100% successful at!   

I do that I think WW works wonders and helps people live "normal" lives, and I can say that I have never committed myself 100% to that plan and allowed myself to be successful.  This time is different.  I've been paying for a monthly membership for a long time, now I am going to use it.

Wednesday!

I weighed in on Wednesday even though I was already 15 minutes late to the meeting.  My weigh-in was discouraging and disgusting.  I walked away from the counter and sat in the back row in the lime green chair and felt like I should have been sitting in three chairs!  UGH!  I just felt disgusting.  So the meeting leader (someone who has lost an amount of weight to make them healthy and kept it off) asks the room, "who believes they can do this?" 

Are you freaking kidding me?  IS THIS REALLY what we are talking about today.  Put a knife in me now, I don't believe I can do this!  I'm just trying to convince myself!  

Would you believe that NOBODY raised their hand that they were having a hard time believing in themselves...oh so you guys are perfect and doing perfectly fine!  
SO I raised my hand!  I have no problem being honest...obviously from my blog.  

The WW lady called me out, "you aren't wearing your name tag...but you are having a hard time believing in yourself?"  she says to me.  
I said, "Yea this is (insert tears and choking) haaaaarrrrrrddddd"  

Then she turns to the group and asks if anyone can relate...sure enough every hand goes up- one in the air to agree and another to wipe a tear!  

DUDE people we gotta stick together and be real together...being heavy sucks and hurts and is hard!  

So some how the meeting turned into ways to encourage Alissa, and everyone else!  It was so relieving to be REAL! Imagine that!

So I weighed-in...remember not sharing that information quite yet!  But this Wednesday I will go back to WW and to my meeting, I will weigh-in and I WILL be happy!

And then I will blog about it.....................................